i have changed before.

people do change, this is the truth. but most of the time they somehow shrink back to there former selves. change a lot of time is not sustainable or permanent. but the universe is constantly changing and we are part of that change. mostly like worker ants, the ant hill gets bigger but the worker ant doesn't know, realize, or even care. but we are not ants, the universe gave us dominion over all that is on earth, but we don't really even have dominion over our day. change is learning to have this dominion over our every moment, our every thought, every emotion and every action. every one. but we don't want to be that conscience. that takes to much work and is to much personal responsibility.

i started this blog with complete sincerity in finding answers to my question why we don't change. but i failed to remember that i have changed a great deal, i became pessimistic for a short time. I'm a very powerful being and so is everyone else, I'm not special, just willing to stay in the painful truth long enough till it isn't painful anymore. this is one part of a two part process to change.

Vision and pain, these are the two parts to change. you have to have very vivid vision, and a written vision in the form of a pliable plan.

pain and a willingness to stay in the pain long enough to build increase capacity.

we are always changing for the good or for the bad, if we don't have the willingness to endure any pain then our capacity is shrinking. so we move from the uncomfortable to what we believe is comfort, but that becomes uncomfortable is just a short while. until we no longer enjoy anything or anybody.

but if we learn to stay in what is supposed to be uncomfortable we expand. if we stay their consciencely and that place is a part of our goal. i.e. running, or writting, or just being a good parent.

books have been a very big part of change for me in the past. if we don't first increase our ability to have bigger visions, we can't change, and books have helped me with this eminscely.

homecoming, by bradshaw

feel the fear and do it anyway, author a female can't remember

the art of happiness, the dalai lama

acts

rich dads guide to investing, robert kiyosoki

real estate books, by tyler hicks

jim cramers, street addict

and i'm reading a great book on change currently,

the power of full engagement, by jim loehr and tony schwartz.